What can i do to help..is by

  Week by week, time by time they become stressed, sicked, and face problem with the past. i looked at them. Sometime it make me sad too. i looked at them, its like the whole world try to take them down.

  I know its been hard for everything even for me too. Its like a tree look out for water. Its been a while, they looked so sad. I hate sad.

  One things i can help is by make sure they settle everything the had to. I can  help by doing the rest of the things. I'm not showing off. I just worry that everything will make you even stressed out, make you blaming the whole world.

  I don't care if you suddenly says, "ahhh you do it because you wanted to show off, or you do it for attention" well if you said the words, you never knows me.

  Don't you feel tired? i'm human and yes i tired. Even so, i don't define tired to myself. but one things i do really care is, i hate to see them sad. "Word spoken silently".

  If you understand then is ok. Understand is the best value of Thank you. But if you take it for granted or giving me that annoying look or felt that im annoying you or make you sick. Well then, all i can says is "its nice of you".

  Far from that, i really do thank you for everything, you maybe unnoticed it. To me this my way of saying "Thank you".

 

sometime i want to scream...

  Its like voiceless. taking care of everything sometime tire's. But i'll do it to make sure everything in order. taking care is a good thing to do. Beside, i can help lower their stress. Something its my way of saying thank you. Screaming yeah i sometime i really want to scream. Maybe that time was a bad day. But one thing i'm sure. I love taking care of things and make sure everything in order. Give me a hands is better then asking for hands.

I can't care

     I laughing but its not suppose to, i listened to them and wonder why i can't be like them? i don't talk to much lately. i see people, they have things they like and pursue it as hard as they can. i know what i want but lately time, space, words seem to bring me down. Ahh they won't make me down. hahaha
   
    Last time, somebody talked me.."you immature" i think that person judging on what i acting on. My posts on the Facebook really work. But its just sad, i can't be that person. whose really take things to the fullest. Last Mid semester breaks all people i known off to their hometown, the house eventually silence, its too silence until i can hear the refrigerator cooling sound.

   i guess that Mid semester break difference than last time. Last time i don't felt so lonely. Fortunately my housemate took me to enjoy even it is for a day. Silence really make you think. "What IF" that words playing and make you thinking deeper.

   "What If" really make us thinking. =)
Even so, we try anything and everything to be strong.. we just human hahah that for sure.

As i go

     Bit by bit, i felt that the eyes stared at me. Sound and whisper behind me, its like knife were after me. that place full of loneliness. They think i didn't see or not knowing. hahah, I know, i listen, i observe, anyway i won't judge or i won't nagging because we grown people, we have to know whats the best. After all, things will change instantly.

    Time won't wait and i should do the same, i should live to the fullest, i wont cried for any bad decisions. From now on, Things gonna hurt you more, remember you made a promise, that promise is the best. As you go, take and give everything you can, spent it as much as you can, gain as much as you can.

    Family, Friends and Events i shall treasured it. Life goes only once. I don't believe "The End" but i do believe time for each people will eventually stop.

    From my heart, now, it felt so lonely but not empty as i do everything to make myself happy, but still that loneliness filling my heart. I know why, haha that just my selfishness to get something. I guess i got jealous when i heard people talking about love, about how much they want to get love and be loved. And me, i still the same. i listen to them and then help them. But i wonder, will they help me when i really in that situation? 

   

    So silly of me to ask that question haha, even myself laugh if ask my friends that selfish question. haa Don't you felt tired thinking things that unworthy. Ohh i guess because of my age, i start to think of something. I think because of age people change. They begin to think about "ultimate sharing" and also they start to think of finding someone that able to hear their heart.

   For now, "you" don't ever share you problem, as you yourself can see no one will able to understand it. You shall do things that make you happy and in the same time don't  be drifted. Don't ever sad because its not worthy. keep that sadness for something that far important. Don't run away, just tell straight to their face if they ask you. Don't lied but you can lie if you have too haha.

  "You" must be careful because as the world spinning, everything can destroy you. Be MEAN, that worth to  do.

Negative

 No one can run away from unwanted behavior. Most of as realize the bad side or negative part inside. But remember you, its ok to have negativity inside you, as long as you use it well.